Friday, May 09, 2008
For the Motherless and the Childless
empty arms
empty heart
empty hole in the soul
seeking she-who-is-not-here
and child-who-never-came
only a white rose to wear
for the one-who-was-incapable-of-mothering
and
no one to rise up and call me blessed,
or wear a red rose for me
Lord, how I love my sisters
and their children!
but you know,
in my deepest silent honest place
how empty my arms are
and how my motherless heart weeps
and how my soul aches
on this day
dedicated to
mothers.
You,
who gave me first and second birth,
wrap your everlasting arms
around me once again,
and around all those whose
arms are empty
and whose hearts long to nurture
and whose souls cry out
for
mother.
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8 comments:
Thank you, Psalmist, for expressing so beautifully the empty arms and for the children we were not able to bear. (sigh)
Sorry, that was from me.
You are so full of love and God's Spirit that I find it very jarring to my soul to read this. I pray that God will answer your prayer and soothe this ache as only He is able. ((((Psalmist)))) love, Maureen
....so late in catching up with this. Beautiful. Precious. Thanks for articulating it.
Bless you.
Paisley
Amen. Thank you so much.
How you doin'? I've been self-absorbed here lately...God bless. Paisley
Thank you for your kind comments, everyone.
Maureen, please don't be concerned. This is one of the shadow parts of who I am. I'm feeling this most acutely now that I'm essentially past the potential for childbearing and still single. When my ex-husband abandoned me, he took with him the hope of ever having children, though it would have taken medical intervention. And as the years have gone by, every so often I've been keenly aware of that loss. I think that's why I love the children I work with so much. God is sufficent--more than sufficient--but understands and holds me when I miss my miscarried child, the mother who never mothered me, and the grandmother who did.
Thanks again for the feedback on the poem/prayer, everybody. It means a lot to me.
my heart can not express with words how grateful i am for your heart felt expression, your words,touch my broken heart and made me feel less alone, Thanks
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